GIRLS NIGHT!!!!

Tomorrow my 3 girlfriends from college are coming over to hang out...Im so excited that we are able to hang out. My last pregnancy we were out of touch so I am really happy to have them around this time. We have it set up where we will meet up once a month at one of our houses. this time is my turn. They should be arriving as i get out of work 2ish or so. and While I will have the baby , it will only be until 6 when her dad comes home.
Everyone is bringing a dish . There will be mac&cheese (not from the box) chicken wings , cornbread, chips,and of course whats a girls night without DRINKS the real stuff, virgin for me thx. (another 8 months -1 yr and i can drink again. {im including breastfeeding}). Even though there is going to be all this food including the chicken that I will be making I feel so nauseated I probably wont be able to eat much of anything (just like last month). I will also probably be very tired. Now that I think of it I actually should be in the kitchen cleaning and seasoning the chicken now. ugh I really just feeling like ordering some wings but of course this is the more economical way. (its just being sick makes everything that much harder). Yes I am a bit of a crybaby but it is rough and there is no book that tells you how to cope and deal when #2 comes around....

LOSING WEIGHT NOT SO GREAT...

I cant believe that i just said that. Since I can remember there was always the last 5,10,15(postbaby) lbs to lose. NOw with baby #2 the morning sickness (ms) is so bad that I am losing weight...we =ll sort of. At my first ob visit at 9weeks I was ###lbs. then Wednesday i had another visit and I only gained 1lb. If i can keep it the weight thing at a steady pace like that while being able to eat that would be GREAT!! You are probably asking i thought you said you lost weight. well as anyone that has had a baby should know that after baby your weight can be the same pre-baby but it is distributed differently. Earlier this evening my SO said "you lost a lot of weight. Everywhere else is smaller but my belly got big. "did i mention that I am HUGE!!! Anyways still cant eat anything. I will try hotdogs tomorrow and see how that goes. About to have my nightly drinks with little  person in tow(yes its late for her but she took a really late nap and i dont like to disturb them if they are sleep) I guess I will pay for it tonight. "DRINKS...MMMMM".
-Night

BOLOGNA CHEESE AND MACARONI SALAD SANDWICH...MMMM

Growing up my grandma used to give us sandwiches on the weekends for lunch and she would either put coleslaw or macaroni salad in the sandwich (thinking now pita pockets are ideal for this) and it taste so yummy!!! dont knock it till you try it...(no not a craving) this is a usual thing for me. However can i tell you that when I was pregnant with #1 her dad used to make me "drinks"....I need a moment....lol ok these "drinks" were non alcoholic for me ofcourse but he would add his choice of liquor. basically it is frozen fruits blended with ice and juice. very simple sounding i know , however!!! can i tell you the last 3-4 months of my pregnancy i had to have at least 1 (sometimes2) of his "drinks" every night befor i went to bed. and then it would make the baby move. so it was drinks followed by a 30-45 min belly show...lol I just had a craving for a "drink " so around 10:30 pm b4 the supermarket closes at 11 he went and got frozen fruit and bread (for my sandwich) and hot dogs and buns (the only thing i can really keep down)...

as he handed me my "drink" it wasent the same...then i realized the diference i had an extra set of eyes peerig into my cup as i drank frm the straw. so of course i shared (im a nice mommy) and  with in no time at all the "drink" was done...no baby movement yet still a litter early for the reaction but at least i know someone else enjoys them as much as i do. i think next time thought she will have to have her own  with a yogurt though (got to make it healthy)...

CURRENT SITUATION

I was given a due date around May 27 2010. The same day as my SO birthday! so already he has requested that I amy have to take one for the "team"and schedule a c-section so he can share his birthday with the new baby. I would absolutely love any input on that last little statement . I personally do not want to schedule aything! I wanted an all natural birth however i feel i dealt with it the best way that I could and in the end did not get that. This time I did a little more research and I think I am going to look into the bradley method for delivering this next baby.

I think that is one of the good things about having kids close that anything you didnt get to do with the first you can do now! (will touch back on that topic a little later)

HISTORY

Ok . Where do I begin. I wanna first say that I am by no way shape or form ever been good at writing or anything connected to it. So please forgive any long drawn post about who only knows what. (lets not forget im hormonal)...lol.

Now im ready. I have a beautiful 14month old daughter whom I adore. she started walking Sept 29,2009 (the reason i know that is because it was the day before the last day of her birth month) other than that i am not good with dates. I had her via unplanned c-section (3 days of labour she ended up face up head down instead of face down head down) and my expierence was not great. This time I am hoping for a successful V-BAC. her dad and I have been "shacked up" for abt 2 1/2 yrs now as i patiently wait for the ring ...lol . We definately have our disagreements and Im learning how to deal with them. (what fun).

After my first born I swore up and down that I did not want anymore children right now (my SO is 10 yrs my senior) and im still in my 20's so I thought that one was fine. Being that his age and that he was an only child (i come from a family of 1 sister and 6 brothers) it seemed that as soon as they closed the incision he was already looking for another one. I just felt I still have so much that i would like to do before having another one. ex finish school (2 yrs to go) was my main goal. so much for that idea. I mean i know that i will still be able to go back but its like now it delays it for another year at least.

Maybe a little TMI but before I was pregnant with my first my "love" life with he dad was GREAT!!! it was like during the c-section they took my baby but also my mojo :-( and I did not know how to get it back . That plus the added fact that I had PPD and did not treat it for like 7-8 months. it really put a strain on our once amazing relationship. As far as the intimacy goes I kind of accepted it cause it did'nt bother me. so when i realized i was actually pregnant, I was more than shocked!!

the second time around

That would be a great name for a new book. there are all these books when you first get pregnant. What to expect when your expecting ( and that whole series), Belly Laughs (loved the book) and the list goes on and on. However there are no books about the second pregnancy. Granted I already know that every pregnancy is different, however there has to be some sort of guide line of what you will go through being pregnant while already having another child, especially if that child wont even be 2 yrs old when the new baby arrives.

That is what I hope to portray over these next 6-7 months (yep that makes me abt 12 weeks. YaY{sarcasm})