HISTORY

Ok . Where do I begin. I wanna first say that I am by no way shape or form ever been good at writing or anything connected to it. So please forgive any long drawn post about who only knows what. (lets not forget im hormonal)...lol.

Now im ready. I have a beautiful 14month old daughter whom I adore. she started walking Sept 29,2009 (the reason i know that is because it was the day before the last day of her birth month) other than that i am not good with dates. I had her via unplanned c-section (3 days of labour she ended up face up head down instead of face down head down) and my expierence was not great. This time I am hoping for a successful V-BAC. her dad and I have been "shacked up" for abt 2 1/2 yrs now as i patiently wait for the ring ...lol . We definately have our disagreements and Im learning how to deal with them. (what fun).

After my first born I swore up and down that I did not want anymore children right now (my SO is 10 yrs my senior) and im still in my 20's so I thought that one was fine. Being that his age and that he was an only child (i come from a family of 1 sister and 6 brothers) it seemed that as soon as they closed the incision he was already looking for another one. I just felt I still have so much that i would like to do before having another one. ex finish school (2 yrs to go) was my main goal. so much for that idea. I mean i know that i will still be able to go back but its like now it delays it for another year at least.

Maybe a little TMI but before I was pregnant with my first my "love" life with he dad was GREAT!!! it was like during the c-section they took my baby but also my mojo :-( and I did not know how to get it back . That plus the added fact that I had PPD and did not treat it for like 7-8 months. it really put a strain on our once amazing relationship. As far as the intimacy goes I kind of accepted it cause it did'nt bother me. so when i realized i was actually pregnant, I was more than shocked!!